I can’t believe it’s not Cancer! I wish I had a Tardis.

On February 6, 2015, I read this article posted on DSCI411.com, which was titled DCIS is NOT Cancer! After reading this posting by dp4peace, I cried so hard like it was the first time I heard “You have Cancer”.

The posting was in fact an excerpt from Dr Laura Esserman, an article published in the National Breast Cancer Foundation of Australia, back in November 2013. That brought my tears to a river flow. According to Dr Esserman, DCIS is not an emergency.

Why was I so fearful to research about my type of cancer before my mastectomy? The fear was placed in my brain in 2006, when my own mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. I did research about it back then, boy do I remember the graphic images that surfaced from that Google search. From that research and the people around me, I learned a bit about organic foods, but mostly what I learned was that the surgical options for breast cancer were not that great in terms of reconstruction after the mastectomy. It scared the shit out of me – I never research anything else related to breast cancer after that.

The fear grew even further after my diagnosis last year. Because the tumors were located as close as 1mm to the chest wall and the nipple, the doctors insisted that a mastectomy was what they had to do, and they had to do it right now… After reading what cause cancer in the first place even though I have history of cancer and things I can do to regress this disease with a plant-base diet – I wish I had a Tardis to bring me back in time.

Surgery day!

Surgery day!

I had a friend who was telling me to look into other alternatives medicines, but when you are faced with mortality, your judgment is quite impaired. The fear and negative emotions are taking over. I wish she had insisted and tell me otherwise, but when you get a diagnosis with something with the word “cancer” in it, your reality gets distorted.

I wish I had a Tardis to bring me back in time

People abandon you because they don’t know what to say or simply because you have become this shit load of negative energy and no one including yourself wants to be around you… I was angry and not fun at all, there are several stages of emotions this disease brings along, but that stage of anger and black-cloud-above-your-head was dreadful to my family, my friends, my clients and myself.

I was angry at everything and everyone and became quite isolated, before the surgery, my inspirational quotes were my only friends and support system. After the mastectomy, my obsession with researching the causes of cancer and writing about it became my new hobby. This is a life-changing event and it makes you change your priorities in life.

DCIS is over rated!

I can’t believe it’s not cancer!

My new priority is to help other woman prevent breast cancer in the first place. I also want to help women that were just diagnosed with DCIS to take the time to research what this stupid disease is about before taking this drastic decision of chopping it all off like I did. It fucking hurts like hell, you will never be able to sleep on your belly again, you will never feel an arousal from being touch on your breast and the reconstruction options are nothing to dream about.

Perhaps in my case it was the best option, but was it really?

References:

DCIS is NOT Cancer! by dp4peace
DCIS411.com

US surgeon calls for a rethink of DCIS by the National Breast Cancer Foundation of Australia

US surgeon calls for a rethink of DCIS

Do You Know What Your Oncotype Score Is? It Can Help Save You From Unnecessary Treatment! by thebreastcancersite.com
Do You Know What Your Oncotype Score Is? It Can Help Save You From Unnecessary Treatment!

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